I have always been accused of being a grouch. Mataray. Sumpungin. Pero madaling lapitan. At my age now, it is becoming more prevalent. Is it because my body metabolism is changing as I grow old?
I easily get pissed off. Small matters. Large matters. I cannot tolerate stupidity. I cannot tolerate plain dumbness. But before I was so patient. Even utterly trying to teach some guys new tricks and lessons that go with their work. I am what you may call an adoring and conscientious teacher.
But now? well, i am very short on temper. Konti lang, I ignite with intensity. I feel sad because I am not this way before. Me napa-iyak ako kanina. Kawawa naman. Hindi naman ako sa kanya galit kundi dun sa boss niya , e siya nabalingan ko. I will apologize to her tomorrow.
Is this really natural for guys my age? Matandang binata na bugnutin? Physically, I am really a snob. Very unapproachable. But once you get to talk to me, I am quite amusing. I am a lousy person. I babble. I clown. Kaya nga lang, I am very candid. Outright candid talaga. If I am good, then I am polite. If I am not, then I get bitchy. People in my loop know this. They just take me for what I am. Hindi ko naman pine-personal e.
kaya, I think this is part of ageing. I am growing gold, ooops, old pala. I am nearing my golden years. And I do not know what to feel. I am afraid, kasi tatanda na ako. Nonetheless, I am pragmatic and I accept that this is part of what we all know as life. Haay, buhay. I wanted to live in suspended animation and just cherish the fond memories of youth. And that is wishful thinking. Daydreaming pa nga.
I easily get pissed off. Small matters. Large matters. I cannot tolerate stupidity. I cannot tolerate plain dumbness. But before I was so patient. Even utterly trying to teach some guys new tricks and lessons that go with their work. I am what you may call an adoring and conscientious teacher.
But now? well, i am very short on temper. Konti lang, I ignite with intensity. I feel sad because I am not this way before. Me napa-iyak ako kanina. Kawawa naman. Hindi naman ako sa kanya galit kundi dun sa boss niya , e siya nabalingan ko. I will apologize to her tomorrow.
Is this really natural for guys my age? Matandang binata na bugnutin? Physically, I am really a snob. Very unapproachable. But once you get to talk to me, I am quite amusing. I am a lousy person. I babble. I clown. Kaya nga lang, I am very candid. Outright candid talaga. If I am good, then I am polite. If I am not, then I get bitchy. People in my loop know this. They just take me for what I am. Hindi ko naman pine-personal e.
kaya, I think this is part of ageing. I am growing gold, ooops, old pala. I am nearing my golden years. And I do not know what to feel. I am afraid, kasi tatanda na ako. Nonetheless, I am pragmatic and I accept that this is part of what we all know as life. Haay, buhay. I wanted to live in suspended animation and just cherish the fond memories of youth. And that is wishful thinking. Daydreaming pa nga.
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